"do you journal?"

kiki's painting didn't make it through the explorations of her day

do you journal? like a diary or sketchbook? blog?

lately it's like the universe is telling me that i have to get back into journaling. finding that space of my own to explore deeper. my friend vanessa came up to the studio and let me see her journal. i felt like i was stepping into someones imaginary world. it was three times its original size with all of the paints and ephemera she had put into it. she pulled it out of her big purse along with a huge bag of art supplies and i laughed in awe saying "oh my god you keep all of that in your purse?!" she said confused, "doesn't everybody?' ha! i just love her. it was like a magical mary poppins bag. she brings out the little girl in me. she has absolutely no inhibitions with her creativity. so her journal and her spirit reminded me how important it is to let that creativity flow at all times.

then she sent me this article about journaling....

and then i watched how beyonce has kept a video journal for 3 years. she records herself verbalizing her thoughts. she said she actually needs to hear her voice. as much as i love this idea it's not for me. but then again, i don't look like beyonce. 

then i also had this idea about having an online journal. i think i've written before about how i have either burned or thrown away EVERY SINGLE journal i've ever written. sometimes i just didn't like what i wrote and sometimes i didn't like how it looked. i think it's because i'm so visual that i need to separate my visual journal from the thoughts and ideas i need to actually just write in words. when i'm writing in my journal i can't get away from how it looks. my penmanship. the lines. the color. and if i don't like it, i just rip the page out. hence, the burning of my journals. however, i don't feel like this with my blog because it is all typed out in a neat little font. 

so i looked up online diaries and i found this. i love it! i can get thoughts out that aren't things i necessarily want to share on my blog, it's separate from my visual journal and it's private. after years of journal burning i think i have found my solution to journaling. i feel very carrie bradshaw-ish.